My name is Green Eyed Girl. I'm a thirty-something happily married mother of four. Lately I've been feeling scattered. I suppose it all started when my mom died. Her death triggered in me the need to write. I'm not sure why. I've always loved to write but somewhere around my early twenties, I just stopped. It's as if my imagination went to sleep and the death of my mom woke it up. This scattered thought process makes it hard to focus on just one thought. Even now, as I sit here, I'm finding it hard to express exactly where I am. I'm hoping that by writing this blog I'll be able to find clarity.
I'm also excited to be able to write anonymously. I'm not hiding, if that's what you're thinking. For at least a year I've wanted to write my thoughts and experiences down without judgment. I often find myself thinking, "I can't post that on Facebook because of so-and-so." or "I don't want to share that because of how what's-his-name may feel." I'm not looking for a place to be mean or pass judgment. I just want to be able to write whatever I want and not worry about who may read it. I've held back a lot of thoughts and emotions about my mom's death because of how it will affect my sister and father to read it. I don't plan on using this blog as a grief outlet although I do expect a lot of my posts to have it in the background. I'd be fooling myself to think otherwise.
Well, I guess this is as good as any first post. I hope that you'll be patient with me as I sort through my thoughts as well as enjoy random stories of fact and fiction. I've had some interesting experiences in my thirty-something years. I look forward to getting to know you as well so feel free to comment.
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